I'm not a good finisher. I leave things undone. My bachelor's degree being probably the biggest thing I've left undone. Two units. That's it. And in ridiculous things. But that's another story.
I find myself not wanting to end this well. I find myself looking at the future. The horizon. 6 months from now. 9 months from now. A year. I see good things there. And I want to focus my attention there. All of it.
There are details to be done now. Things that are hard. Things that I am really really good at avoiding. Really good. But to get where I'm headed, I have to do the hard part.
I have to remind myself that it can't be worse than it is now. Maybe like a shot. It stings for a second, but it's for my own good? It may be hard and ugly. But it already is. To get to the good part down the road, it might sting a little.
So today I will make a list of what needs to be done to finish well. Making the list seems overwhelming in an of itself. But I've come to far to not finish well.
I find myself not wanting to end this well. I find myself looking at the future. The horizon. 6 months from now. 9 months from now. A year. I see good things there. And I want to focus my attention there. All of it.
There are details to be done now. Things that are hard. Things that I am really really good at avoiding. Really good. But to get where I'm headed, I have to do the hard part.
I have to remind myself that it can't be worse than it is now. Maybe like a shot. It stings for a second, but it's for my own good? It may be hard and ugly. But it already is. To get to the good part down the road, it might sting a little.
So today I will make a list of what needs to be done to finish well. Making the list seems overwhelming in an of itself. But I've come to far to not finish well.
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