This step-parenting thing is so much harder than she made it look. My step-mom started dating my dad when I was 5 I think. They got married just after I turned 7. Yes, she has been around most of my life. Yes, I was still young and cute when they started out together. I was easy to like if I don't say so myself. :) But she was just always there, with my dad, a part of my life. I know I caused her grief. I know there were times when she struggled with how to parent me. But she did a really good job of being an adult in my life that loved me, was interested in me, shared herself with me.
How did she do it?! I can't figure out the step-mothering part of my life right now. Yes, my step-children are miles and miles away. I have met the oldest one only twice. I don't know how to build a relationship with her. The younger 2 I spent some time with before their dad moved, before we were married. I have only seen them once since. Their dad goes to visit and I stay here.
The plan is for them to finally venture to our house this summer. I'm nervous already and it's months away. Even when I think we are on good terms and things are OK, I get a text, have a conversation where I am reminded that I am still very much on the outside.
I don't feel bad feelings from them. I just feel nothing from them. I don't know how to go deeper. I don't know how my step-mom did it. But she did. She is a grandmother to my kids just like the 2 other grandmothers they have. They know no difference. But how do we get to that point?
How did she do it?! I can't figure out the step-mothering part of my life right now. Yes, my step-children are miles and miles away. I have met the oldest one only twice. I don't know how to build a relationship with her. The younger 2 I spent some time with before their dad moved, before we were married. I have only seen them once since. Their dad goes to visit and I stay here.
The plan is for them to finally venture to our house this summer. I'm nervous already and it's months away. Even when I think we are on good terms and things are OK, I get a text, have a conversation where I am reminded that I am still very much on the outside.
I don't feel bad feelings from them. I just feel nothing from them. I don't know how to go deeper. I don't know how my step-mom did it. But she did. She is a grandmother to my kids just like the 2 other grandmothers they have. They know no difference. But how do we get to that point?
